Jiwaku Jiwamu jua

have i lost myself  when you were gone  when you were gone forever  from this world have i lost myself when you died i just can't believe i know it was fated have i lost myself when you were gone everyday tears went down my cheeks whenever i remember you have i lost myself each time i see your post for me sometimes i smile sometimes i cry cause i really misses you have i lost myself when you gone i feel like i have lost my soulmate i have lost half of my heart have i lost myself i hope not, cause ALLAH always here with me although i still find the strength within to help me to accept the fact that you're gone. BY HANNTZAH (p/s: this poem was made cause i have lost my special friend, you can read it here I AM 4U-PART 1: INSTINCT PART 2 -REMINISCE , PART 3- MOMENT OF TRUTH , PART 4- DISCONNECTED , PART 5- THE LAST LOOK PART 6- MEMOIR PART 7- HORRIBLE NEWS PART 8- SEE YOU AGAIN SEQUEL- VISIT TO..  )

i don't know what i feel how do i feel it? and why did i feel it? did i really feel it? feel like talking feel like empty feel like lonely like i am a blurred mirror feeling missing feeling longing feeling love feeling angry feeling sad and disappointed all in one at someone feeling please go away come again when the time is right and at that time i may know the answer to what i really feel and why i feel it...... -hanntzah-

i think i love u, thanks for coming in my life even though i'm just hope that u are really for me i think i have falling in love with you.. i don't know how can this happened?  i have open my heart back just because u came? what have you done?  maybe you have pray to god to open my heart so that i can accept u why i feel i love u so much now??  like i dont wanna lose u.. but i just can't.. u aren't mine yet..  you were there when i feel hopeless.. i'm not sure how u knew are we have instinct? does our heart can read each other..like telepathy? does my heart of your heart is linked somehow? what ever it is.. i got a song special for you dear..

am i delusional cause i can feel your love it just that you never said it i don't understand why you always look at me i don't have anything special just an ordinary girl ordinary girl with nothing special maybe looks happy outside but inside she always cries ordinary girl that may have open her heart which she never did in a long time because of tragedy tragedy that have  cause her to lose her smile lose her trust in a man always prejudice a man always think negative in man. am i falling in love with u if i have  can i withdraw it back cause i don't want  to feel the same just as 6 years ago feeling frustrating and heartache i don't want anything unsure i just need a confession  if yes please say it if no please don't look at me  like you love me please go away  if you don't plan to love me cause i don't want to feel any hope -sincerely me : hanntzah-

sorry because i have gone for a very long time..and seldom update my blog..i will make sure this time i will update this blog more often than my main blog..huhuhu..maybe because i don't have inspiration or ideas and most importantly i am very busy..wah..yeke kan..huhu..takpe insyaALLAH lepas ni saya akan update lebih banyak ye..maaf tau..