Freedom and Happiness

I deserve to be happy,

I deserve to feel good from head to toe and not

have someone destroy me

because they think they have a right to me

I am not a thing or an object

I deserve to be free and love who I want

and not be punished because of

what I want or feel

I deserve the peace that comes from

feeling wanted (not by you)

I deserve to gain life experience

I deserve to have a bf (not you)

and get to know him, and talk,

and go out often, and be chased by him,

and be hugged by him,

and be kissed by him

I have never cuddled

I don't know how it feels to have that security

Teenagers have relationships

and I can't have it

I don't want it from you

You had your chance

You had tons of chances

I want someone else

and I will go to great lengths

to get you out of my life

I can't live like this

It is making me sick

I deserve my freedom

To not have someone watching me all the time

and controlling all the details in my life

I deserve to have things that are just for me

No one can interfere

They remain my secrets

I deserve my freedom so I can have my health

I deserve to have who I want

Not someone who is trying

to force their love on me

I want so badly to have my freedom

it is making me sick

and the despair and feeling of helplessness,

like I'm locked in a prison

And someone else is calling

all the shots in my life

It's the worst feeling in the world...

you can simply not imagine

To put someone through so much

is unimaginable

After everything I've been through,

after all I've endured,

all I want is my freedom

to be with who I want

I can have anyone,

so stop trying to make it look like I cant

Don't think you can make me settle for you

after you break me as a person

I despise you

and all the methods you've used

to keep me from everyone and everything

I have no confidence because of you

Thank you very much for everything

You don't deserve me at all

And if you think what you feel is love

your actions speak more

and you need to get your head examined

Leave me alone, or next time I see you,

I will scream my head off 

by natalie